Who knew?

My mom always says I’m too busy and I’m doing much. However, I am often bored out of my mind. But that doesn’t mean that I have accomplished everything I set out to do. It’s actually the contrary; most times my periods of boredom are coupled with bouts of procrastination.

Starting in June my horoscope said not to over book myself, not to say yes to every opportunity that presents itself. And what have I done?

I’ve said yes to teaching an online class. I have said yes to taking two classes at night. I’ve said yes to teaching PM school. I have said yes to consulting on a book. I have said yes to volunteering for an event. I have said yes to lesson planning with three different people; weekly. I have said yes to planning another event with my partner in business. I have said yes to mentoring about half a dozen teachers. YES, I said half a dozen…6! Of course, I’m teaching my normal school load. Of course I am a part of the teams I worked with last year. Top all of that with my impending move and necessary time needed at the gym and I have to make time for dating!

But I haven’t made time for breaking bread with my brother, chatting endlessly about everything with my nieces and lil sister. I haven’t made it to my God son’s football fundraiser or football game. I haven’t made it to my hot yoga class or my Sunday morning 5k with a good friend of mine. I haven’t started packing up my apartment. I haven’t put in all my grades into the new system at work so that I can get that Ipad I so covet.

So for the last two weeks I have been late for EVERYTHING, tired all the TIME, flustered by my to do list, neglecting most things (nope not dating though…lol) and doing everything half-assed. I’ve missed so many important events it’s not funny.

Last week I got home after 11pm 4 out of the 5 work days. Sunday night I realized that I was just done! It’s only been 2 weeks since I’ve returned to work and I can’t do this anymore. I am just doing too much.

Last night I decided that I have to do something that I hate. I have to bow out of doing most of the things I agreed to do. See, it would have been better to say no in the first place. Now, I look like a flake having to tell people that I just can’t…to tell myself I just can’t.

And wait, yall know even with all of that on my plate…I have still been bored right? I know I’m crazy!

I spent all summer stopping and smelling the roses; going on vacation, having Sunday brunch with my girls, taking nightly walks talking with my sister on the phone, spending time with my family, chilling in Barnes and Nobles with my homie,  taking hot yoga classes and reading.

I now realize that I have to continue living that type of life especially while back at work.

So, I am letting go of half of those things…well not half…some…well not some…but you know what I mean. I’m letting go. Every minute of everyday can not be scheduled and I can’t continue saying that I am doing too much. And I definitely am not adding anything else to my schedule.

(deep breath in and out!)

If you’re wondering;  Mr. Coy is good. Troy is good. The ex and I haven’t spoken since the last time but I believe he’s good. And Mr. New York is good as well. Oh, who is Mr. New York you ask? Hmmph, maybe, I’ll tell you next time…because I’m just doing too much right now! Lol

LIVE life yall,

KB

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